Melissa || 20 ||Asexual
Hi guys! I'm Misha and I'm panromantic asexual. I'm a sophomore in college, and I'm a total dork.
I'm always into making new friends! And, I have a follow-back policy, plus my inbox is always open, day or night. I look forward to getting to know you! :)
www.noihatepeople.tumblr.com is my other tumblr. I do less talking there and more reblogging. :P
I’m beginning to think I’m aromantic. Because I’m really bad at relationships. I want to be with someone, but I always follow the wrong people around like a puppy at their heels. I want to be with someone, but when the opportunity presents itself I’m always “just not ready”. I’m not sure. Right now I just really like being alone.
The older I get the more I notice I’m apprehensive to trust people. In almost every relationship I’ve ever been in, I’ve done all the giving and none of the receiving. I try not to let it make me bitter as a person, but I find it’s sometimes difficult. I’ve never been in a functional relationship, is there even such a thing?
None of my relationships have made me happy, as a person. None of my relationships have ever ended on a good note. Now it’s affecting how I make friends, or how I speak to people. I never give people information they can use to completely obliterate my heart with. It’s lonely, but I just don’t feel like I’ll ever meet that someone. Maybe that’s not terrible.
I have so much love to give, yes. But that doesn’t mean I don’t think I deserve some in return.
Anonymous said: Welcome to day 30. How was your month?
Wow! It really flew by! Thanks for hanging in there with me, anon. <3